Half a Heart 2008

eyelashes touch the edge of my glass

inadvertently I watch the bubbles rise up

I see the whole room smiling

i am probably smiling too

but it just doesnt feel like it inside.

Hoping the new shoes would fit

somehow make me whole again

but the bubbles just keep rising to the top

each with a new version of the same story

wandering a bit lost now

feel like I sorta left my arms back there somewhere

dancing with half a heart

bubbles for dreams

and these dumb new shoes

I am mourning proper now

the stone engraved

clad in black armband

tattooed with invisible ink

a blindfold to the pretty things

at least the magic is present

everyday everywhere

a bumper sticker

a song in the store

the pair of ravens, hummingbirds, butterflies...

and the fucking bunnies.

I am listening

I AM listening

eyelashes drip and stain cheeks

inadvertently I watch the patterns

zig zag on the inside of my shades

trying to hide behind the edge of my glass

as the bubbles rise up I ask myself

is this really me?

half a heart and bubbles for dreams.

noticing the scuffs on my new shoes already

I know it is uncomfortable here

dont really want to stay

but nowhere comes and nowhere goes

so I sit and wait for the change in wind

and breathe, buoyant in this sea

like a coyote, soul starved... 

smelling the air

hoping nourishment will

ride a wave to my senses

give whole to my half a heart

reminding me of all there is

I know I knew once